Wow it's been a wild past couple of days.
Josie and I moved up to Logan today. So many emotions and feelings that it's hard to process. All of the other times that I've left my family, they've had a sense of temporalness - except for this one. I miss my family so much.
Some times old things have to die for new things to come in. It's difficult to throw away childhood gifts, memories, and yearbooks; but in some ways, this throwing away allows for novelty and new things. It's really really difficult to say goodbye to my family. In fact, it felt like we kind of skipped that part because we knew it would be too painful. I know that it isn't goodbye forever, but my relationship with them must change and evolve.
Josie and I are so happy together and I can't imagine a more equal and fun partner. College life has such an energy and liveliness to it. You can feel it on the campus. I know for certain that great things are to come, and some have already started. I am so hopeful and optimistic. Nothing has felt more right than choosing to marry Josie.
The apartment we moved into is pretty small but feels like a lot. It's the biggest space we could ever call our own thus far. The apartment is far from perfect. My favorite discovery is that the tub and sink disposal seem to be connected in an odd way. What goes down the kitchen sink goes up the tub drain. Currently, the tub is filled with pesto chicken.
It's crazy to think of the milestones accomplished, the memories made, and the legacy paved. It's bewildering to think of how many times my parents have showed me the first apartment they lived in. I'm living that-- right now. So many decisions that feel so consequential and momentous that are happening right now. But through it all, I know the good will come; I know the storm will be calmed; I know whom I married. I live an uncertain life full of unknowns yet walk through with confidence. I know that no matter what happens, love will remain.
My favorite author said it best. "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times." So much joy and so much sorrow. Change is uncomfortable, but it will help us become better. I couldn't be happier and sadder than I am now. I love you Josie. I love you family. I miss you all.
Love,
Calvin
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